|
1. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse 1]
I should be in class; I shouldn't have masturbated
I can’t seem to help it when my jeans drop
I can be your personal pizza boy, and when I annoy, I can switch it up and bring you Wingstop
My life was a movie, the last scene stopped at birth
Maybe God dropped the Earth
I can’t tell; I don’t want to be blasphemous
But you handed me life, and I did not ask for this
Pity party of one, I’d like a booth, please
I’m like the 8-foot center that only shoots threes
I’m starring in a rap version of Hoop Dreams, I don't know whose team
I should make a new stream
A great place to swim for quiet people, underachievers, honor roll students, and gloomy teens
The rest get applause from booty movements
How the hell does Rudy Tabootie do this?!
[Hook]
I might have ruined everything for myself again
I think I've ruined everything for myself again
I feel I've ruined everything for myself again
I know I'll ruin everything for myself again
[Verse 2]
Get ignored by friends and walked around scorned
The only damned flavor left to eat is orange
Call a girl because you know your ex can’t stand her
Make everyone around you afraid of your candor
Banter with the cameras hidden in the walls, in between taking naps and digging in your drawls'
Then, contemplate spelling it like "drawers"
Don’t apologize for not being poor
Fill your cabinet with ramen and trinkets from your past
Try not to look like a heathen to your dad
Still get nowhere with girls you like, and to the ones you don’t like back, don’t write back
Rub your heart with an ice pack, buy no product with an “i” in front, find time to stunt
Be all you are, then learn it’s not enough
But stupidly refuse to give up
[Hook]
|
|
2. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse]
No water under the bridge with you trolls
These are my Peter Parker "Black Suit" flows
Shot web down your throat like Peter North, brought pork to your Seder
The recalcitrant leader of a cult formed from exiled 4chan users
Gore spammed to your girlfriend's computer
I swear to Yeezus, this ain't a rant, it's a threat I can't promise, cause futures aren't guaranteed
I'm just honest
Screaming at the Burger King cashier, "Hurry up with my damn croissantwich!"
Standing topless on the counter
Frantic; frisky; sweaty and aroused
It's almost ready now, I can taste it
My 15 minutes of fame; with bacon
Aww yiss! Muthafuckin' breadcrumbs!
Rappers don't make shit but scraps, and news flash:
You don't do shit but rap
Sorry, internal monologue
I'm a clown that can't juggle a lot of balls
That's a fraud, even worse, it's impersonating something that seemingly lacks apparent worth
Can't a young nigger make the whites smile anymore?
Aren't I your hilarious project?
Am I not everything you wanted?
I am my experiment gone wrong
This is not a song
This is every day that begins with confidence only to end in a pile of common sense, contradiction, and me cocking my dick
Awww, skeet skeet, God damned me again...
... Awww, skeet skeet, God damned me
|
|
3. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse 1]
This is how depression starts: Swiftly; without warning
I’m still mourning things yet to happen
All because I made of mess of napkins; mortal sin
This portal ends somewhere between the lion’s den and the magic cupboard he’s in
I left my courage in an imaginary place
I ask each day what more is in store
I’m scared, I’m indoors, I want no part of this
I smell a foul stench in the air, where’s Artemis
Pardon this pensiveness plus this persistent irrational distrust of cardigans
I’m guarded no matter the position the card is in
Wary of the face-downs
This isn’t trap
You don’t know what to say now, dummy pants, so you throw your thinking hat high up... and Shmoney Dance
[Hook]
I understand, you’re not impressed, but you can keep that to yourself
Cause you can’t do what I do, if you think you can, go screw yourself
‘Cause that's just what I do
(You wanna be me? Then never ever let yourself be free cause-)
That's just what I do
(You wanna be me? Then never ever let yourself be free)
I understand, you’re not impressed, but you can keep that to yourself
Cause you can’t do what I do, if you think you can, go screw yourself
‘Cause that's just what I do
(You wanna be me? Then never ever let yourself be free cause-)
Yeah, that's just what I do
(You wanna be me? Then never ever let yourself be free)
[Verse 2]
Each song is BART graffiti; each line is a chalkboard gag
Each day my intelligence fades, so I write simpler things, and talk more bad
But I talk more, right, moron?
Add a social point to the sheet you keep score on
I’ll probably still "fail at life", but that phrase is stupid, and I made it useless, ‘cause I don’t live
And I barely exist
4chan lurking prepared me for this
But I’m bad at letting go, so I made two Horcruxes from an unmixed snare and a kick
I’m a corrupted kid with a slick tongue, but which one?
One has a poisonous parcel
Every day feels so hit and miss
Really, I should put faith on my Christmas list
[Hook]
|
|
4. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse 1]
Coupons, I got coupons; discounts, I got discounts
The delivery driver call me pizza boy., and yo’ girl call me Big Mouth
Either way, I stay eatin’; she taste like a Cinnapie
And if my name ain’t in her mouth, then you can guarantee that it’s in her mind
Pizza Hut ain’t no friend of mine, I don’t associate with that second rate
Her panties got left over, now she back for that second taste
Mmm-mmm. Celebrate; told her come by around dinner time
She popped that thang like a Sprite can; my flow be so lemon-lime
Shout out K1ng Eljay, that’s bruh-bruh ‘til the crust gone
You should give me all them beats that Melvin Burch won't cuss on
Cause bitch, I gets down like low serotonin
Bitch, I got heart; Bret, Jim, and Owen
I’m the 7-time champ of the melancholy rap league
Ho, I’m in my pocket, you're like lint tryina’ sack me
True blue boy, I guess you could say I’m crippled
Emotionally handicapped, but I’m never fickle
That’s the order
[Hook]
Don't know what I'm singin' 'bout, but...
Don't know what I'm singin' 'bout, but...
Don't know what I'm singin' 'bout, but...
Don't know what I'm singin' 'bout, but...
[Verse 2]
Eatin' Tuscan Six-Cheese pizza, Cherry Limeade
On a Sunday evening, thinkin' 'bout a Friday
Don’t know how I’ll make it, but I’ll make it, that’s on Papa
Word to John, if you trip? In the car, he got the chopper
So don’t try me, I’m grimy, I’ll blow a hater to oblivion
Heater give your crew blood baths; obsidian
Delivering to any hood, any time
If you’re hungry for a problem, hit the line, and you can dine
But yo’ girl want that sausage, always got her mouth wide
Always got somebody in her like the In-N-Out line
Overrated; but I admit, she still my favorite
‘Cause I never have to tip her, she already know my payment
And she know the way I like it: fresh and warm
Light on the sauciness; she don’t talk back no more
She love me ‘cause I’m real, I trained her to hate fakers
Making bread left and right, that’s that Kay Panabaker
Ungh
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
Chase the Red Bull with water, I am Deadpool and Potter
I'm the hero in my story, and I know it, so don't bother tryin' trick me
Leave me or lick me, you've got two options
My girl look Emma Watson; yo’ girl look like Hopsin
Fuckboy, quit jockin’, when I’m rappin’, ain’t nada wack
Post-performance at a jazz club: I gotta snap
‘Cause that praise shit? I don’t get a lot of that
And to tell the truth, Emma Watson never hollered back
I’m an escapist; this is my greatest act
If I wasn’t living ‘cause of fiction, I would make it fact
It’s the journey, not the fucking destination
Everybody chasin' bullshit; empty chicks with full tits
Twitter follows, Instagram likes, promotions, Gamerscores, and achievements
Bitch, I don’t believe shit but this damn slice that's in front of my face, this damn bed where I lay, and this damn song I created
And that's the order
[Hook]
|
|
5. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse 1]
We were thrown into a bottomless pit...
I feel like a Samara that never got a tape
And you were caught mid-fall by a dick called Gender Inequality
You finding a guy so swift really got to me
Taylors up in the air, I'm still falling; appropriated; made a mockery of
You said you loved hip hop; I don't even care about it
You said you knew me; I thought it was fair to doubt it
But so it goes; you were airlifted
And we are never ever getting back together, but enough with swiftness
Slow it down
I roll around in this mud puddle of memories deliberately
I think we're enemies
But the history seems to show two lovers
I think we were just life lessons undercover
[Hook]
I couldn't put that smile on your face...
I never had that power...
You swore I was the answer, a-a-a-answer-
These questions, stop running, stop hiding, stop numbing all this pain that we're supposed to grow from
I kept the faith, until you wouldn't show none
[Verse 2]
In the parking lot of the Westfield
The stress feels like the red pill
You hated that film, I waited to feel something outside the turquoise
But we were trapped in it
And you liked it, I wanted you to admit it
Half this is self-inflicted, Melvin Bitchness; senseless
Far from witless, though
That's why you wanted kisses, no?
I get this
Sadness attracts sadness, but sadness is unattractive
I am unattractive
Twice the reason I have to ask if you like me for me or what you think I could be
I feel hoodwinked, look at where you put me
Some kinda reference would dilute the message
But, since it was a game to you, consider me the final boss of all of your evil exes
[Hook]
|
|
6. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse]
Music unrelatable; undesirable
Fans swear I'm lying, though
My blue heart remains, though I've been wounded so much, it should be violet
Sent petitions to Obama, he rejects 'em, I'll keep trying, though
Dwelling in that zone where no lion goes
Laughing like a hyena because your mountain lion froze
Steve Jobs wasn't a maverick
I'm mad at monopolies in the market, I see go and I go past it
I go in until there's nothing left; cut a check; 2hunna
Dollars, not a thousand; I'm broke in student housing
I'm choking on the bat, hands slippin', girls pitchin' from the mound and I get nervous, so I bunt then run around the bases like I hit a home run
But I never passed the first one
And honestly, she's basic, so why am I even playing?
Just sayin'
Back to scheme, you'll find me lounging and wondering why I heck I find Ronda Rousey arousing
Pounce on any and everything in the kitchen I've found, and bring it back to my bedroom, cause my roommate ruined the couch when he brought that girl to the house, and he put his tongue in her mouth and put something else in a place that we don't have to talk about
Right?
Cause that’s naaaasty
I’m like Cleveland when I rap, so you traaaash me
But I’m cool; I’ll speed up when you catch up
For argument’s sake, let’s say you did
Guess what?
Time for the Bic, thumb slides, and a flick
Dumb guys get close and get fried like they French
Got a fire inside, it arrives when I spit
Thought I meant a lighter? No, I’m describing my pen when it glides on a sheet and I’m vibing to beats, and you hate from the side like Spike, but I leave on a jet with the win, I’m the king of New York
Kickin’ it like the guy that I "sneaked" in the bar two lines ago
Bouncer missed it
Now Romeo Must Die for spouting slick, it’s-
Really not worth it; kill the violence
Oxymoron
Playing footsie with a bucket hat; so much death on my brain
All these rappers are tucking packs... and gats... and girls... and racks
But each of them will crumble, if I mumble
Yes, I rumble like the young man I am
Quick dinners on a Foreman grill
My facial hair is formin’ still...
I will get no listens on my raps, but trust, Natalie Portman will...
... That’s just the world we live in
What is struggle rap? Rap is innately struggle
Struggle against convention; struggle against the muzzle
If language isn't art, then why did we take that class?
I’m in a computer lab, irritated with a pad, and a mouse on top, a blank Google doc open, typing things that’ll spark a lot of hurt around your colon
I’m really just a Golem, rolling down a hill
Too grounded to smash a bird; no flounder in my palm ‘cause water kills
So what fish in the sea? I’ll stick to xHamster
Teanna Trump or Belle Knox, what's the best answer?
I’m in Urban Dictionary next to “ain’t shit”
I’ll be productive after I heat up this Banquet
I have no Benjamins; I think I'm Franklin
Except I never left my shell
Rappers are ninja turtles, I wish them well, my job is thankless
Any army of one, no vest, and I'm tankless...
... Running in Puff Daddy's house, like "Take this."
|
|
7. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse]
I just want to talk to you
You could be to fun to talk to
I don’t want you naked on a webcam
I wanna make jokes in a deadpan
Maybe put you on to a few songs
I’m not saying that we would be best friends
In fact...
(I don’t need you. Like, you’re cool, but I don’t need you. I don’t even know what I’m doing this for. BUT...)
Let me clear this up, ‘cause technology smeared it up
For some reason, I’m certain you’re a really cool person
Yeah, you don’t understand why I am so attracted
I don’t understand why I am so attracted
But what’s the reason anyone approaches anything?
It’s really not strange when you think about it
What’s the reason you do anything at all...
... when you realize you can definitely be without it?
|
|
8. |
|
|
|
|
[Verse]
Blinds open; sitting at a desk, malingering
All of these keys that I keep fingering
Never opening locks; time tocks, the tick is Heather Brooke
Making eye contact, but I never look
Don’t look down; heart sucked of its life force
Asking fortune tellers "What the fuck do I try for!?"
All of this is pretentiously deliberate
Or it’s the reverse; I don’t care, contrivance delivered it
Dreamt I kissed a white girl with my liver lips, woke up, and wished I didn’t remember it
Playing a song from The Decemberists
No drive in my engine; gassed; wasting my pension
It’s a shame, but I do not feel it
Eating processed food faster than they can seal it
Somehow, I graduated from a dreamer to realist
There is no longer a safe place
Now I’m in a Safeway, bagging for white people who hate Drake
Listening to Marvin’s Room when I take breaks
Overturning sugar bowls, searching for a sweetness to life
Maybe find the reason I’m alive
I can’t tell anymore; I don’t know anymore
They don’t hold any doors when it comes to opportunity
I know ‘cause I’m the doormat...
Society doesn’t support that
But I support it, out of good character
We always leave "north" out when we say America
Everyone is self-centered, I’m building a "self" center
You are not invited; no membership packages
No special rooms for your drug-addled actresses
No "basics" around to say what kind of rap this is...
Just Melvin Burch eating pizza on a mattress, bitch
[Hook]
I should not care what you're doing...
Doing everything just to keep you from booing...
I wanna sit still, but I can’t stop moving...
I don’t know what I’m doing... I don’t know what I’m doing, but I know that...
|
i've spent two and a half years dying in a dorm room. this is the result.
released September 2, 2014
written by: pizza boy.
recorded at: Club River Run Apartment Homes, San Diego, CA
mixed by: pizza boy.
production by:
- Abstrakt (track 3, 7, & 8)
- AsonHi (track 5)
- Lyle Horowitz (track 6)
- ? (track 4)
- scallops hotel (tracks 1 & 2)
artwork by: pizza boy.